We have all at times questioned life, asking ourselves what is life all about. We look around and see the poverty inflicted on people, starving children dying in the arms of crying mothers while the government cheat the system. With all this going on, we question life and ask ourselves is there actually a God? We have read  the media about corrupt churches sexually abusing young children, with all this in mind, its no wonder some people lose faith. I have on many occasions tried to read the bible and many times questioned what has been written, why would a God with no sin wish to send people to hell? Why would God inflict such pain on sacrificed innocent animals? Why did all this happen yet today, we see nothing of this. 

Recently, we lost our beautiful grandson Aston-Lee. My daughter in law fell pregnant only to find at 5months pregnancy that she had no amniotic fluid and her baby would not survive. Our beautiful grandson had no kidneys and no lungs. How could this be?.  He was born alive, his little heart beat was so strong and beat for 1.5 hours. Although his heart did  beat, this little fella was brain dead due to no oxygen going through his lungs, he sadly died in my sons arms.


. On the morning of my daughter labour, I sat in the garden praying to God asking him to give me strength so I can be strong for my son and daughter in law. Seconds after the prayer, I witnessed this most amazing feeling go up my right arm and into my body, a tingling sensation. I went in to the house and felt this over powering strength inside me. Minutes later the phone rang and my Son Lee asked me to get down to the hospital. I arrived to see both of them in the labour room looking a little lost and afraid. The day went on through the night and as each hour past Claire had more sever pains. The rain beat down outside and the darkness of the night made it even more gloomy. Michelle Claire mum joined us and together we helped Claire through her pain and supported Lee through out the night.

 0623am Aston was born, the fear across my son face and the crying of  Claire made it so heart breaking. From the moment that baby was born the sun shone through the window, heating up our body that were so cold through shock and fear.  The sun remained until he died.

We have been witnessing some terrible weather, for the last few weeks, we have had nothing more that rain and storms but the moment my grandson was born the sun came through warming us from deep within.


I know our little Aston-Lee is now in heaven with Jesus and I am certain that Aston-Lee soul left when the sun went away on the morning of his birth. We all agreed as we all witnessed this together.


After his death, the rain fell again and on 10th May 2012, we buried our little angel. On the morning of his burial, again it rained but as we sat behind Lee and Claire car following the hurse to the cemetery, the sun shone down over there car. My children in the back were all amazed that this one car had the sun shining down yet the others were not.


I appreciate many of you who read this will think this could be down to my loss or maybe because I am imagining it, if you witnessed the same as we have, you too would see that this was as a sign from above.


I  believe our grandson is now in heaven and for us all, we one day will see the after life.
I would like to thank God and Jesus for being in our life and helping us deal with our loss of a beautiful baby boy.